And so January 2010 has passed. It's already February! the 2nd to be exact, and well, little jackie's birthday! although she isn't really little anymore- in fact, it's her quarter life crisis birthday, the big 25. I still remember my 25th birthday... apex dinner. sunset room. lol. and those were the days. 24 I think was more memorable- still working for acn, and my solo trip to paris. time really flies, i still remember it so clearly really. anyhow, wishing my lil sister and auntie jackie a happy happy birthday!
lately i still haven't been well at managing this blogging thing. Sofia is still a bundle of joy. Lately (within the past week actually), she's learned to suck on her hand more, slowly and closer in getting fingers, a finger or her thumb into her mouth. I guess this is self soothing, as i've read in the books and we shoudln't be worried as it'll subside in a few years max. she's cute though when she does do it. but we do need to make sure she isn't putting her hands anywhere they shouldn't be (i.e. near dirty diapers during changes), and then later on into her mouth. eeew. so the fight against germs really begins. :p In the past two days i've noticed too that she is able to bring her head up strongly, when laying on her tummy (depsite that she hates hates tummy time)- she can lean on her forearms and push herself up! :) I'm hoping she can use her wrists and hands soon too... though her wrists are pretty chubby! :p
she's 10 weeks old now... growing and growing... we're still trying to establish a good sleep pattern, though lately she's also found her way into our bed, making her able to sleep better at night, though less room on the bed for mommy. my neck has been cramping some lately too and my wrist isn't better yet.
& now for my venting.
last Wed, i went to dinner with jane (who was here for work) and dad decided that even after his family mtg which already ended at 130am, he decided to go out. where? to see daryl and karaoke (that same place he went with andy till 5+am the monday before). Well, i called at 5am when i woke up of course, and no answer. i was starting to get worried as i really thought perhaps he got mugged between walking home from his parents here. Finally at early 6ish i got a bbm, saying he's okay and at dad's and not to worry... but i called again and no answer. then 630 he finally called back saying he's coming home. Well, turns out he wasn't at dad's passed out and lied. ... long story short, he finally fessed up and we went into this thing about trust, and going out/ being responsible, just letting me know. etc. I hate to make it feel like he can't go out, but really, not coming home? tha'ts no good. plus his clothes smelled like smoke and well, he said it was only daryl and him. Plus at 645am someone called, and i called back and a girl picked up. it was the name on the card. joey. at the karaoke place. but i think it's a landline b/c yah, no redial afterwards. anyhow. drama? i hope not. he said i need to trust him, but at the same time when he lied and that karaoke place's card is shady... and yah, well even now the card is gone. so i donno what to think. but i have to give him the benefit of the doubt. he was out all day on thursday, didn't go to work.
i think he felt bad so on friday we had a semi "date night" and went to eat at the oyster bar in the sheraton. it's quite nice. we intended to go shopping first, which we did and then walked over. mela and m's mom watched sofia. it was a nice dinner. i was partially drunk too from the bottle of wine he ordered. anyhow we picked up m's dad at intercon and he was drunk. then he was saying oh no, have cancer... m started to cry because he was so upset, but i know it isn't that bad, or could be not too bad, since dad had cancer. it's just a mind thing... change in diet, exercise, etc. anyhow, m's dad told m to take care of me, and of course he's lucky and so am i. anyhow, i hope things are okay, and they turn out okay. i'm sure they will though.
so m now thinks he's grounded. i hate to think he feels like he can't go out. i only ask that he be responsible about it, like 4am isn't early... plus i know the alcohol intake in january was pretty high for him. he went out at least once a week if not more, based on weddings and such. i didn't really say anything... but i think that's why his back when out again on saturday. yep. oh well. it's better now for the most part. he went to the accupuncture dr on sunday and another dr today.
but Sofia, you're doing well. I hope you don't hear mommy and daddy being short with each other. i am doing my best not to argue or say negative stuff in front of you b/c i know that's not good. so yah. hopefully you just know that mommy and daddy love you very very much and we just want you to be happy and healthy. our little sunshine... mommy and daddy love you always. no matter what.
i need to update more. you're growing so fast.
tonight you even were talking in full baby sentences. i have yet to capture it on video though. it's like you know i'm taking a photo or video of you, so you kinda get shy and stop. haha. smart cookie.
i love you little girl.
xxxxxxooooooooooo
