mommy was in the hospital, waiting for your arrival little girl...
4 months ago, 10pm, we had just checked in and were getting strapped into the monitor to hear your heartbeat and feel the contractions... nothing normal or regular yet-- that would come by 11pm, but how excited i was. how excited we (daddy and i were).
4 months ago, you finally decided that it would soon be your birth day... after being 10 days late from your original estimated due date of 11/13.
4 months ago, it sure flies by.
You're sleeping already, you have been since 8pm tonight... after your bath, massage and eating... and you sleep like a little angel. But in mommy and daddy's bed, taking up half the bed, for a little person... but such an angel you are and so beautiful in your sleep.
mommy loves you and only wants the best for you... remember to be thankful and guai, be good to mommy... and daddy (today you were mad though! because you woke up from your nap and mommy was out shopping/running errands and daddy couldn't manage you)...how the love of a mommy and a daddy are so different. daddy is actually out at a concert tonight with karlson, and because i said he could go-- yet he doesn't thank me for everyday that he gets to go out and comes back late and i watch you; like he has taken mommy for granted sometimes and doesn't know that it's hard work to take care of a little baby! And the house is messy, but i'm sure he thinks that a helper will fix all that, with less work for mommy to do, since he doesn't clean up much either... otherwise he thinks mommy is nagging. sigh. and he expects mommy to go back to work. and be a mommy. and clean. it's all about balance little girl. being a wife, mommy is about balance... i'm still learning, though i want to cry somedays. not because i'm sad or anything, but sometimes it's frustrating because i love you little girl so much and it's not your doing-- i just need a little bit of help sometimes and i wish it'd come from daddy. lately i just feel it's not balanced, he can complain about his back, being tired, etc... yet i am too.. and i don't nearly go to the spa as much, or out with friends, or this, or that... it's just not balanced so i feel slightly blahhhhhhhhhh. balance. balance. i hope little girl, that you are better at expressing yourself than mommy is, it's not good to keep things inside. I hope you will be able to communicate them better and speak well, and are charismatic, and above all, graceful and appreciated, grateful.
4 months... the time really goes by. i can still remember it like it was yesterday... happy 4 months my little girl sofia... mommy's little baby girl.
