Tomorrow (well today) is 12/30. That means grandma tsang, grandpa tsang and auntie jen jen and jackie are all leaving hongkong to go back to the states. i am a bit sad, well more than a bit sad... as i know i'm sure grandma is too. it makes me sad because i see how quickly sofia, you are growing up, and how time will pass and mommy's family won't be here to see you grow up like daddy's family will. I suppose it's a bit the same way as mommy's parents (your grandparents) well their parents weren't around to see us three grow up... but i guess it's a bit different this time. Why? not sure. Maybe because i feel so close to my mommy. I'm even crying while typing this! (ahh the hormones perhaps are still adjuting). Even when we left dinner tonight- *sigh*, the tears were running down my face for that reason. To think that Sofia, you won't see your grandma tsang for awhile and she's soooo wonderful. the funny thing is, i think she feels the same. She wanted to hold you every minute she could- and of course, i let her because i knew that she wanted to hold you... i know that she feels like she too, will be missing out a bit since she is so far away... but i guess that's just part of life. though it makes me sad. I wish she were closer, or we were closer to her. She is just so very loving that i would love for her to really be able to spend these early years with you all the time so you know just how much she loves you Sofia. oh dear. so many tears right now i look at your face while you are sleeping and you are so calm, so precious, and i still cannot believe that you're my little daughter and i feel so blessed and grateful. But oh, i really do wich my mommy were here with me too, to share this blessing. it's going to be tough. it's probably also a good thing we're not going to the airport tomorrow morning, otherwise i'd be a mess sending them off! gosh. horrible mess.
i hope you don't grow up too quickly sofia... so that you can wait fo ryour grandma tsang to watch you grow up and hopefully with video chat/internet, you'll be able to see them and talk to her more often... i really want you to know her and love her as much as you can, even though you won't see her as much as your other grandparents... because even though grandma and grandpa tsang are far away, i can assure you they'll love you soooooooo much, and already do more than you can even imagine.
hormones. must be the hormones as to why i'm so sad. but i guess i should be happy... happy that mommys' family were able to come for 2 weeks/ 1 week and meet you... though it seemed to pass so quickly, hopefully we will see them soon enough again, at every chance we have.
mommy loves you... mommy's family all love you very very much too.
smile sofia... our little sunshine and happiness. :)
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